Strangers Feelings

It's because no matter how much bright is the sun, there are always dark clouds cover us.

I've been felt stranger.

I don't know why, maybe i belive i don't have a reason to be in bad mood or maybe that's

what i want to think to not be worried.

I'm scared, scared about the things that could it happen.

Sometimes i just wanna cried, because.. just because i wanna do it, because its a kind of redemption to me, but when i see my grandma with that worried face, when i see to my mom's face, when i see that worried expression on my uncles eyes i just can't do it.

It's strange but at the same time normal.

It's stupid but at the same time it's ok.

My birthday is cooming soon but, to be honest i don't wanna do nothing. I don't wanna see anybody and i don't wanna stay nearby the people who is important to me.

I know that make that descision maybe it's gonna hurt to my closer friends & my family, but i wanna spend the day alone, just to pull out everything that's fuckin' me drowing me.

Why? i don't know shit! i think and i feel like everything is gonna fall down and i have to be the only one who support that shit! i won't be ok untill im sure that everything was just a false alarm or just a wrong diagnostic.

Everybody acts like nothings happen but thats not true.

We're liying to ourselves to feeling us save just a few minutes, but i cannot do that more, because i have a limit and i crossed it last days.

My best gif birthday it will be your health guys.